Emotional Eating, Stress, Boredom?? hmmmm....

We are going through the beginnings of layoffs here at work and although I'm fairly confident that I will be safe, it is very hard not to be dragged down into the dregs of emotion with everyone around me. I am a sponge when it comes to the energy around me and at work here it is very low - no motivation, depressed, etc. I'm pretty good at protecting myself and not letting folks get me down, but somedays I find I'm lacking a bit of motivation myself. I'm feeling like I'm waiting with the rest of them.

And what I discovered on those days - (I think I'm actually just bored) is that I often "feel" hungry. So I have to sit back and think about it and recognize that thought process for what it is and then move on from it - but not without a lot of concentration. This is something I need to work on as sometimes I think I concentrate on food too much.

And speaking of which - during my yo-yo years and the start of this new clean eating lifestyle, I'm pretty sure I'm trying too hard, stressing myself out, worrying about the numbers, feeling guilty if I fall back a bit. I need to learn to let go, to relax, just enjoy my journey. So what if the numbers are not moving so fast, it didn't take overnight to gain all the weight, so why should I expect it to come off overnight? Besides, slower is healthier. I know the facts, but the brain tends to ignore it and worry about things.

Besides - who am I doing this for?

So my goal for today is to relax and let it all go (not my body, just the mind). I'll eat as clean as I can, and exercise to the best of my ability - that's all I can do for today, tomorrow and onward and that is all I should expect of myself.

Let it go!