Waiting Game!

This waiting game is starting to get annoying. What am I waiting for you ask??
Job validation – unlike most around me, I’m fairly confident that I will be keeping my job. I have a unique technical skill in my profession where I’m the only one with the “expert” knowledge. I’ve always called it Job Security and with this upcoming layoff it has been put to the truth. But as stupid as this may sound, do I really want to be left behind? With less folks, the work doesn’t really stop, just less of us to do it and will that mean a lot more stress for me? Then that little voice in the back of the mind always asks “are you too confident about your position?”.

Waiting for my vacation to come – of course I am leaving for a tropical vacation the day they are going to announce who is being selected for the “involuntary packages”. It was supposed to happen next week but they postponed it for another week and I’ll be coming back to work with less peers than when I left and that is bothering me. I may not see some of these people again – that hurts a bit. And for them, for the announcement to be postponed another week – well that’s just cruel. They are on pins and needles wondering if they will have a job or not come February 16th.
Waiting to lose weight and get into shape – this one weighs on my mind the most. I want it to happen like Yesterday! But I need to learn to keep taking it that one day at a time, one step at a time thought process. I am eating right 90% of the time, and exercising regularly. Ok, maybe I could workout harder during my cardio sessions but my HR is around 70-80% and really, that’s fairly hard. I just “feel” like I should be working harder…

Waiting to find purpose in my life – I’ve not had a rough life by any means, but I’ve been tromped on quite a bit because I’m a push over, a nice gal, softy, always looking out for everyone else before me. And because of this, I think I’ve been looking for what my actual purpose is here in this lifetime. Sometimes I reach and accomplish something, thinking it is really what I want, only to find that I’m still waiting. I know better, there is nothing to wait for only to experience, so I’m trying to just live each day to its fullest and enjoy life. I just need to be ME!

Waiting for the summer to come so that I can go camping – waiting for the dog to grow up so she stops being a pain in the butt , OK, I am enjoying the puppy stages but man she can drive you nuts some days…. Waiting for my finances to be in order – I guess unless I make that first step to getting them in order, they aren’t just going to organize themselves now are they? Duh! Waiting for my grown adult children to move out of my home so that my spouse and I can enjoy the entire place to ourselves – but unless they get better jobs and the economy doesn’t smarten up, I will be waiting for some time yet. (Yes I know I could kick them out, but like I said above, I’m the “nice” one and for now I’m helping them out).

Waiting for tomorrow…..