Thoughts......

I'm almost afraid to write out what my future plans are in case I don't succeed. Isn't that just down right dumb?? I'm already planning to fail before I even start. Duh! Hip pain = fear of moving forward.... think it's linked? I'm beginning to wonder that myself.


How can I succeed getting to my end result if I don't want to commit and get the job done right. Be accountable to not only myself but all of you. I'm p'od that that I'm not able to fully jog/walk right now because my hip hurts so much but what if I just did it anyway and just dealt with the pain? I'll admit this was the worse it has ever been and it has scared me a bit but come on Sandra... you are strong!! you can work past this and get your a$$ moving in the right direction.


Years ago when I did the BFL program, I did well. I lost 50 lbs within a little over 3 months. I was ten years younger than now but I did it and I can do it again. I used the emotional stuff that went on in my life at that time to let myself go again. I need to let the emotions go and start enjoying life again - stop sweating the small stuff. I'm a firm believer in synchronicity and feel that things happen around me for a reason. If I need something, be it something to learn about myself, or do for myself, or just whatever.... it will be there right in my face. So last week after holidays and feeling angry at myself for taking a vacation from my healthy lifestyle and then being in pain all over again from being inactive, I read blogs and article after article about late night snacking, and then alcohol and weight loss, and so on (whew talk about run on sentences). This week it is this: It's time for me to relax, to let things go. I need to get back into peace with myself and everything around me (including the BF). Stop looking for fulfillment (or happiness) outside of myself and go with the flow. I gotta just be! Live one day at a time making the best choices I can at that time and STOP STRESSING OUT!


So starting Monday, I'm going to start working out faithfully to the best of my ability at the time (hip pain or not) and I will be eating as clean as I can. My goal is to lose 24lbs by November 22nd, and that works out to about 2 lbs a week. I don't think that is unreasonable and a heck of a lot better than what I have done in the last 8 months (never mind 3 :) )


And so it shall be....


Make healthy choices,
Sandra