I have talked about this before but wanted to bring it up again as I think it deserves its own post. I have been journaling for a very long time but not consistently. I wouldn’t call them a diary because sometimes they contain personal thoughts, sometimes just what I ate, sometimes just the workouts or sometimes all three - I'd even insert an "Other" category here. My ex husband (#2), when we were breaking up, said he read through a lot of my personal thought journals and used them as amo against me (he was very verbally abusive during our breakup) so I’ve kind of been shy of doing that sort of deep down digging since 2004/05. But I think it is time to start up again because until I find out exactly what emotional baggage I am carrying around (if any), I may not be as successful in being in the present and in tune with my body. If I’m still living in the past, I can’t move forward very successfully into the future. And I totally trust my BF to respect any book he sees lying around which belong to me (and he hates to read J)
Right now I have 4 books in a current journal state – one is my 90 day challenge where I am logging all my foods and exercising minutes. I also have a binder in my workout room which lists EXACTLY what I am doing for my workouts (weights, miles, times etc.). I have another journal for any spiritual revelations that I encounter (I call them synchronicities). Another for my BACH flower remedy treatment results (another post on those later) and now another that I’m starting for my “what do I want” journal. I have countless others that have not been finished and someday I may just update them as to where I am in this life at this moment. Sometimes it gets too be way too many but whatever, it is as it is.
I also classify this blog as a journal but it is not a deep-down-dig-it-out-reveal-it-all kind of journal – I’m too private for that but it sure is very helpful with my journey right now.
I’m hoping my “what do I want” journal will help me determine what exactly I am looking for right now and to help me get there. I’ve always had this feeling of detachment from my current state of life that leaves me feeling like I am missing something, that there is more for me to be doing, that what I am currently doing is not all that I was meant to do….. kind of deep – I know. I’m hoping that this new journal will help me open up more and be more in tune with my wants and needs. I’ve spent so many years worrying about everyone else around me that I’ve suppressed my own wants and needs and for the last 5-6 years, I’ve moved towards focusing on me for a change. I’m the oldest in my family, we are all grown up and living successful lives. We’ve lost both our parents at an early age (Dad 55, Mom was 60) and really felt like I had to be the matriarch of the family but I’m starting to let that go because they (my brother and sister) are finally accepting the past and moving on. Well my Brother still has moments but they are getting fewer and farther between.. (he’s still a bit bitter).
Anyway, my point is, journaling will help you organize your day, thoughts, goals, plans, and whatever you need to get out there – so have you written in and reviewed your journal today?
And back to regular scheduled news:
Food has been good for the remainder of this week (I’m down another .8 of a lb since last Friday), and I’ve got to plan for the weekend to make it work.
Exercise has been good – hip is tight but no pain so walking is much easier – yahoo!
LIVESTRONG 2009
My thoughts and prayers go out to everyone who has been touched by cancer either personally or through someone you know. It can be a nasty disease and I will continue to contribute to foundations that are researching cures. My Mother lost her battle in September of 2001.
Ttyl
Sandra
I like the theme of your new journal. Helps set up the plan for the future.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed this post, journalling can be a big help, but it's terrible if you don't feel your journals are safe from other people. I am curious to hear more about your experience with Bach flower remedies, I took two courses on them, and use them as well.
ReplyDeleteYou can never have too many smiley faces. I was actually wondering how you did that, made it look like a smiley instead of :) that I use.
ReplyDeleteI recently started journaling my food instead of the Weight Watchers online tracker. Seems to make a huge difference for me. Not sure why, maybe writing it down helps. Whatever works! :)
This post made me smile. . . I so can identify. I always have a bunch of lists and journals and collect little cute bound books. . .but I have to say I much much prefer to type than write by hand. My handwriting is atrocious!
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