Ok, Holidays are over, work life has stabalized - at least for now - so now is the time to move forward with renewed vigor and determination.
I just received my copy of Turbo Jam! I'm excited to start working out using this program. I think it will be fun. My son moved out of my basement (which is where I workout) and is no longer sleeping on my couch so I can workout as loud and as much as I want without worrying about being interupted. I hate an audience when I'm first starting out with an exercise program as I'm sure I will be all left footed not co-ordinated with the moves. I've watched the first DVD to see how it work and it looks likfe fun so tomorrow I'm starting with Day 1 - wish me luck.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Waiting Game!
This waiting game is starting to get annoying. What am I waiting for you ask??
Job validation – unlike most around me, I’m fairly confident that I will be keeping my job. I have a unique technical skill in my profession where I’m the only one with the “expert” knowledge. I’ve always called it Job Security and with this upcoming layoff it has been put to the truth. But as stupid as this may sound, do I really want to be left behind? With less folks, the work doesn’t really stop, just less of us to do it and will that mean a lot more stress for me? Then that little voice in the back of the mind always asks “are you too confident about your position?”.
Waiting for my vacation to come – of course I am leaving for a tropical vacation the day they are going to announce who is being selected for the “involuntary packages”. It was supposed to happen next week but they postponed it for another week and I’ll be coming back to work with less peers than when I left and that is bothering me. I may not see some of these people again – that hurts a bit. And for them, for the announcement to be postponed another week – well that’s just cruel. They are on pins and needles wondering if they will have a job or not come February 16th.
Waiting to lose weight and get into shape – this one weighs on my mind the most. I want it to happen like Yesterday! But I need to learn to keep taking it that one day at a time, one step at a time thought process. I am eating right 90% of the time, and exercising regularly. Ok, maybe I could workout harder during my cardio sessions but my HR is around 70-80% and really, that’s fairly hard. I just “feel” like I should be working harder…
Waiting to find purpose in my life – I’ve not had a rough life by any means, but I’ve been tromped on quite a bit because I’m a push over, a nice gal, softy, always looking out for everyone else before me. And because of this, I think I’ve been looking for what my actual purpose is here in this lifetime. Sometimes I reach and accomplish something, thinking it is really what I want, only to find that I’m still waiting. I know better, there is nothing to wait for only to experience, so I’m trying to just live each day to its fullest and enjoy life. I just need to be ME!
Waiting for the summer to come so that I can go camping – waiting for the dog to grow up so she stops being a pain in the butt , OK, I am enjoying the puppy stages but man she can drive you nuts some days…. Waiting for my finances to be in order – I guess unless I make that first step to getting them in order, they aren’t just going to organize themselves now are they? Duh! Waiting for my grown adult children to move out of my home so that my spouse and I can enjoy the entire place to ourselves – but unless they get better jobs and the economy doesn’t smarten up, I will be waiting for some time yet. (Yes I know I could kick them out, but like I said above, I’m the “nice” one and for now I’m helping them out).
Waiting for tomorrow…..
Job validation – unlike most around me, I’m fairly confident that I will be keeping my job. I have a unique technical skill in my profession where I’m the only one with the “expert” knowledge. I’ve always called it Job Security and with this upcoming layoff it has been put to the truth. But as stupid as this may sound, do I really want to be left behind? With less folks, the work doesn’t really stop, just less of us to do it and will that mean a lot more stress for me? Then that little voice in the back of the mind always asks “are you too confident about your position?”.
Waiting for my vacation to come – of course I am leaving for a tropical vacation the day they are going to announce who is being selected for the “involuntary packages”. It was supposed to happen next week but they postponed it for another week and I’ll be coming back to work with less peers than when I left and that is bothering me. I may not see some of these people again – that hurts a bit. And for them, for the announcement to be postponed another week – well that’s just cruel. They are on pins and needles wondering if they will have a job or not come February 16th.
Waiting to lose weight and get into shape – this one weighs on my mind the most. I want it to happen like Yesterday! But I need to learn to keep taking it that one day at a time, one step at a time thought process. I am eating right 90% of the time, and exercising regularly. Ok, maybe I could workout harder during my cardio sessions but my HR is around 70-80% and really, that’s fairly hard. I just “feel” like I should be working harder…
Waiting to find purpose in my life – I’ve not had a rough life by any means, but I’ve been tromped on quite a bit because I’m a push over, a nice gal, softy, always looking out for everyone else before me. And because of this, I think I’ve been looking for what my actual purpose is here in this lifetime. Sometimes I reach and accomplish something, thinking it is really what I want, only to find that I’m still waiting. I know better, there is nothing to wait for only to experience, so I’m trying to just live each day to its fullest and enjoy life. I just need to be ME!
Waiting for the summer to come so that I can go camping – waiting for the dog to grow up so she stops being a pain in the butt , OK, I am enjoying the puppy stages but man she can drive you nuts some days…. Waiting for my finances to be in order – I guess unless I make that first step to getting them in order, they aren’t just going to organize themselves now are they? Duh! Waiting for my grown adult children to move out of my home so that my spouse and I can enjoy the entire place to ourselves – but unless they get better jobs and the economy doesn’t smarten up, I will be waiting for some time yet. (Yes I know I could kick them out, but like I said above, I’m the “nice” one and for now I’m helping them out).
Waiting for tomorrow…..
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Emotional Eating, Stress, Boredom?? hmmmm....
We are going through the beginnings of layoffs here at work and although I'm fairly confident that I will be safe, it is very hard not to be dragged down into the dregs of emotion with everyone around me. I am a sponge when it comes to the energy around me and at work here it is very low - no motivation, depressed, etc. I'm pretty good at protecting myself and not letting folks get me down, but somedays I find I'm lacking a bit of motivation myself. I'm feeling like I'm waiting with the rest of them.
And what I discovered on those days - (I think I'm actually just bored) is that I often "feel" hungry. So I have to sit back and think about it and recognize that thought process for what it is and then move on from it - but not without a lot of concentration. This is something I need to work on as sometimes I think I concentrate on food too much.
And speaking of which - during my yo-yo years and the start of this new clean eating lifestyle, I'm pretty sure I'm trying too hard, stressing myself out, worrying about the numbers, feeling guilty if I fall back a bit. I need to learn to let go, to relax, just enjoy my journey. So what if the numbers are not moving so fast, it didn't take overnight to gain all the weight, so why should I expect it to come off overnight? Besides, slower is healthier. I know the facts, but the brain tends to ignore it and worry about things.
Besides - who am I doing this for?
So my goal for today is to relax and let it all go (not my body, just the mind). I'll eat as clean as I can, and exercise to the best of my ability - that's all I can do for today, tomorrow and onward and that is all I should expect of myself.
Let it go!
And what I discovered on those days - (I think I'm actually just bored) is that I often "feel" hungry. So I have to sit back and think about it and recognize that thought process for what it is and then move on from it - but not without a lot of concentration. This is something I need to work on as sometimes I think I concentrate on food too much.
And speaking of which - during my yo-yo years and the start of this new clean eating lifestyle, I'm pretty sure I'm trying too hard, stressing myself out, worrying about the numbers, feeling guilty if I fall back a bit. I need to learn to let go, to relax, just enjoy my journey. So what if the numbers are not moving so fast, it didn't take overnight to gain all the weight, so why should I expect it to come off overnight? Besides, slower is healthier. I know the facts, but the brain tends to ignore it and worry about things.
Besides - who am I doing this for?
So my goal for today is to relax and let it all go (not my body, just the mind). I'll eat as clean as I can, and exercise to the best of my ability - that's all I can do for today, tomorrow and onward and that is all I should expect of myself.
Let it go!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Not sure where to start.....
I'm going to be 50 in a couple of years and it is past time that I started to take care of myself. Maybe being accountable to the public will help me along the way. My father passed away at the young age of 55 and I do not want to follow in his footsteps. Mind you, I am already much healthier and active than he ever was but still the point is that I want to live a long and healthy life.
And this year it will be by eating as clean as I possibly can. I'm a big fan of Tosca Reno so after reading her book and following her delicious recipe's, I hope to continue down the road of a healthy life. And if I got into shape like she is, then that will be the added bonus.
I became serious about my health in September 2008. OK, I've done it over and over again since my 30's but I lived the yo-yo life. Physically, Healthwise and Emotionally. Now it's time to take it seriously because time is catching up with me and I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.. which I'm sure everyone has said themselves at one time or another.
So what do I plan on blogging here? I don't know yet as I've never done this before but like I said above, maybe writing out for the world to see will encourage me to be true to myself!
And this year it will be by eating as clean as I possibly can. I'm a big fan of Tosca Reno so after reading her book and following her delicious recipe's, I hope to continue down the road of a healthy life. And if I got into shape like she is, then that will be the added bonus.
I became serious about my health in September 2008. OK, I've done it over and over again since my 30's but I lived the yo-yo life. Physically, Healthwise and Emotionally. Now it's time to take it seriously because time is catching up with me and I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.. which I'm sure everyone has said themselves at one time or another.
So what do I plan on blogging here? I don't know yet as I've never done this before but like I said above, maybe writing out for the world to see will encourage me to be true to myself!
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