Oh so tired... :)

I want to eat when I am tired and really need to stay awake. I’ve noticed this in the past. I’ve mentioned before that I will eat in my vehicle to prevent from falling asleep and as a passenger wanting to stay awake so that she can keep the driver awake (sunflower seeds work well).

Yesterday at work, I was very tired, almost exhausted. Could hardly keep my eyes open. Not sure why other than I was very tired from the stress and lack of sleep on the weekend.  What stress you ask? Driving home on Sunday was stressful because the truck wasn’t behaving normal, and we had a slow leak on the back trailer tire. Fortunately we noticed it before we pulled away and I still had some relatives there. My Uncle had a little air compressor and we put it on the tire and tried to pump 80psi into that tire. The compressor broke at 55lbs. It was smokin!

So we got into the truck anyway and pulled it out of the valley and to the nearest town which fortunately was only 30 minutes away. Then we filled it without knowing exactly to what pressure as all their gauges (and our own) only went up to 50lbs. But it was enough to get us home. And fortunately the truck didn’t start fully acting up until just before we were to pull it into the acreage which is where we store it. It had acted this way when we came home from one of the last trips and I had asked Mr. Sandra to get it looked at before this past weekend but especially before this upcoming trip. We  are going through the mountains or what we call the Crowsness Pass and it’s pretty steep up through and back down again. We don’t need any issues on the road.

But he didn’t do anything about it, and it had acted up again on Sunday. I wonder if he will get it looked at before Friday…. I really do not want to have to say "but I asked you XX times to get it looked at before this trip"..... you know that "I told ya so" thing. I hate doing that.

So back to that hunger/tired thing, all I wanted to do on Monday was eat. Didn’t matter what, preferably healthy, like almonds, apples, carrots, etc., just to stay awake. I was reading a manual and was falling asleep – so I took out my carrots. (When I read at night, I want  chips…. Hmmm….)

I am not eating intuitively, I am emotional eating. I am eating because I’m tired, I’m eating to fill a void. I need to not do this as I am not hungry. I’m just doing…

You getting tired of reading about this yet? I’m trying to work through it and I guess I need to get it down in writing. And what better place than somewhere I can get actual feedback J

I’ve tried getting up and walking around the floor when it hits me but I was so busy I hated the disruptions but how productive do I really think I was with struggling with falling asleep. I tell ya, I was doing the head bobbin thing and my concentration sucked. I’m trying to work on new stuff and reading manuals is boring, and put tiredness on top of that, well you have this:

I'm not sure how to deal with this but I have to learn to do it with something other than food. Hard to undo many years of a bad habit overnight but I am sure it will be possible. I just have to find the right replacement. Anyone have any ideas?

Good to note though, when I got home last night, I got on the treadmill and did a jog/walk for 30 minutes, strength trained for 30 minutes and then back on the treadmill for another 45 minutes. Felt great after that... still tired but good.

I hope you have a fantastic day!

Sandra