Ok folks, I've had enough of trying to be nice to myself :) I'm done with pussy footin around my "diet".The way I have been eating and drinking is not a "way of life", "how I'm going to do it until I die" thing. If it is, then I will just continue to put the pounds on. Eating intuitively is not for me. Maybe once I get my diet under control and eat at what levels I'm supposed to eat at, then it is a "way of life" but right now it is not working for me. I need to set limits.
I am so embarrassed to say that I weighed in this morning at 200.1 lbs. That is disgusting for my short 5'2" frame. That is almost a 15lb gain this year from trying to do my own thing by not being on a DIET. Sure I've been eating clean, I've been pretty good there. I've had the cheat meals once or twice a week (80/20 rule) where I may eat something that's not good for me but generally I've been pretty good. I am just eating too much of a good thing.
I did exercise a lot, and still do, but I can't eat what I worked off and then some. My body just doesn't have the muscle mass yet to burn off what I'm putting in my mouth. If I want to workout like an athlete then I must eat like an athlete - but within my limits.
I have no one to blame but myself and I've not wanted to blog lately because I knew I was doing really bad (and I've been super busy too). But it's time to face the music, the firing squad, the reality and truth of it all. I'm not going to lose this weight by being nice to myself. I've got to get down to business and get my shit together. My 365 days to 50 is not going as planned.
So there ya have it, I'm done with fooling myself and it's time to hit the scales.... food scales that is...
I hope you are having a fantastic weekend! You will see more of me as I need to be accountable and putting it out there like this is going to make it so...
ttyl
Sandra
good luck with your goals!
ReplyDeleteHey Sandra, glad to hear from you. Wish I had great words of wisdom to make everything easy for you... I can say you are definitely on to something with the realization that working out alone won't help you lose weight. For most of my 20s I gained weight steadily even though I worked out a lot and walked a lot every day... I got so frustrated about my weight, but of course, I didn't realize (and avoided educating myself) that I was probably only burning about 600 cals a day through exercise. I ate like I was burning up 2,000! It was ignorance and a bit of denial. So just putting two and two together on how your eating has to synch with working out is a big step forward, imho. Stay strong!
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best with your renewed efforts. I know that getting all the details worked out and finding what works can be a frustrating process, but it sounds like you are committed to get results.
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! We both can.
ReplyDeleteBlogs are great for accountability. :)